“BAM” – My Ego, A Sordid Offender!

My morning started off gloriously as I meditated to start my day.  Following my meditation, I worked on my routine for clearing my emotional patterns and I read my morning email.  Everything went as planned until I got to the gym.

On the way to the gym, I was thinking about how lucky I was, daydreaming about my husband, children and grandchildren.  I lovingly acknowledged my little Saab as I touched it with gentle hands, thanking it for getting me everywhere I needed to go.  And then, “BAM” – it happened so fast I didn’t realize what hit me!

In high gear and raising  its ugly head, my ego showed up.  It happened while I was waiting to get on one of the elliptical machines.  It all started as I finished my last warm-up lap and I was ready to start my weightlifting circuit.  I noticed two women enjoying each others company on a machine I needed to use.  I gave them some private time, but after 10 minutes I realized they weren’t going anywhere.

My ego entered as my internal chatter began, “How could these women sit on a machine for more than 10 minutes without realizing that others were waiting to use the machines too.  I’m right and their wrong!”  I gave them both a hard stare, but they never looked up at me.  I took several loud, deep breathes, cleared my throat and threw my towel from one hand to the other trying to get their attention.  How dare they waste my time having a conversation on a machine I needed to use . . . and I needed to use it NOW!

And then it hit me!  I slowly walked away, my head hung, as I kept repeating to myself, “how could I let my ego take over without even recognizing that it was present; who was I hurting; but, of course, only myself.”  This morning I had just worked through my issues with my ego on control, abandonment and rejection.  Where was this demon hiding on my way to the gym; under my seat, in my purse, in the trunk or inside ME.

Yep, it was inside of me, buried so deep that my persistent routine of clearing my emotional patterns wasn’t going to be as easy as I thought.  It was a message to me that I should be patient and gentle with myself.  That moment happened to me today to teach me a lesson.  It made me realize that moments like these are ones that I should constantly prepare myself for just like a pianist prepares for a concert, a speechwriter prepares a speech, a chef prepares a meal and an engineer prepares a blueprint.

This is a job and one that cannot be ignored.  “BAM”, it hit me again.  I need to take time to not only identify my emotions, but I need to make a list of things that trigger my emotions and prepare my action to meet this sordid offender.  I know this offender (obviously not well enough) as its been with me for a very long time.

When I got home, I scooped up my books, Feelings Buried Alive Never Die, along with Releasing Emotional Patterns with Essential Oils; grabbed the recommended oils and started to work even deeper to eliminate this offender.

My ego was in control mode and I needed to let go, release, allow and flow with the moment.  I’m not sure when this feeling and emotion started in my life, but it’s now very important that I become aware of it, attend to it, ask for balance and remember that I am content and blessed as I work with my Peace & Calming oil to release it; it serves no purpose for me anymore.

Tomorrow is Solfeggio day . . . yea!  It’s been seven days since my first treatment with this tuning fork modality and I’m anxious to share my experience.

Until tomorrow, I send peace, love and abundance your way as you discover your emotions, feelings and beliefs in order for you, too, to  live the life you were meant to live.

(This author shall not be held liable for any loss or other damages, including but not limited to incidental, consequential, or other damages. This author makes no claims for any medical benefits of this program. The advice of a competent medical professional should always be sought in the case of health matters.  Copyright in this document belongs to this author.)

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